We talked it out this morning, and he explained to me why he asked me why I was scared. It boiled down to what a couple people said to me...and he agreed...he's a guy, and he can't understand what I went thru. He says I shouldn't worry cuz Marissa's pregnancy was completely normal and nothing I could have done to prevent what happened...and I told him that that's the EXACT reason I am scared-cuz I know that even normal pregnancies give no guarantees. Anywho, I wanted to apologize to him on here--he was hurt cuz he knows so many people read this and it made him appear like an ass. Granted, the way he went about it (and the way I, in turn, went about it), sucked..but it's out in the open and taken care of now.
We did go to lunch today, and we did go together to the doctors office. Doc started out right away saying we may not hear the heartbeat cuz I'm still fairly early (12 weeks) and I'm overweight. Did the papsmear (yuck), and the nurse went to listen to the heartbeat and GOT IT LIKE RIGHT AWAY!!!! Doc and Alex were talking football, and she stopped w/ the doppler and everyone looked at me and said, 'You heard right?'. I said, 'NO, All I heard was football'..LOL. So she did it again for me...in the 140's! It was a HUGE relief...and yes, I'm still scared..but this appt in particular terrorified me.
Thanks for the hugs and well-wishes (and the couple of gals that were kind enough to remind me that guys don't always get us, and vice versa).
3 comments:
I am so happy that you heard the heartbeat. I pray that the next 28 weeks will be uneventful and in the end you will have a beautiful healthy little baby. I would suggest renting a doppler then you can always hear the heartbeat when you want to. I did that with my pregnancy because I too was paranoid about losing the baby. I had one miscarriage before. It really reassured me everytime I heard her heartbeat. I think it would make you feel better. Good luck and I really am hoping this time you will get the happy ending.
very glad the heartbeat was good and strong. HUGS!
Oh Becky! I'm crying, I'm so happy you got to hear the heartbeat!
You have so many angels watching over you & this little pumkin...and a lot of angel moms saying prayers for you
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