Redemption

Should never had been something that had to be done to begin with, but I feel better that it's done nonetheless.  I think this time is it.  I hope, anyway.  I know why, now, anyway.  Not that it made me feel good to hear the truth...but atleast I heard the truth.   So many more important things in life then this stupid shit, and some of these stupid people.  Honestly, can some of them not read??  Or is it they're sure they can do a better job?  Pathetic.

We go to the doc next week.  I think that's part of the reason things came clean.  I'm scared shitless...he knows it, he is, too.  He finally saw how the game affected me...I think, anyway.  We saw a blanket at Walmart today...finally had one with Eeyore on it.  He told me to get it, if I wanted to.  We've been buying little things here and there before we actually found out we were pregnant again...but since we've found out we are, I'm scared of jinxing it.  I told him I'd come back for the blanket maybe after this week's visit.

Things aren't ok...but I'm hoping they will be.  I really want to believe that my point was received loud and clear.  That the game is, indeed, over.  Knowing that you've gotten one person to love you, want your children, want to marry you and spend the rest of their life with you should be prize enough.  Stalemate--no one wins.