Hurry up and wait...

Ok, so...I've been sick.  Yesterday, I started cramping up pretty good.  I called my ob's office, his (ever-snotty) office girl said that I had to see my primary care provider.  While I'm pregnant, my ob IS my primary care provider as far as the insurance is concerned.  She said she would tell the nurse and she would call me back with whatever med she was going to order.  I hear nothing.  My cramping gets worse.  I pack up my daughter, head to the ER.  I sit there for 5 hours, watching everyone that was there when I got there go back...and everyone that got there after me go back.  Me and 2 little old ladies sat, waiting.  I finally got up and asked registration when I was going back.  She said there were 5 people in front of me...I said there are only 3 total sitting in the waiting room???  We left.  I figured if nothing else, maybe I'd feel better in the morning.  I didn't.  My stomach is cramping up so bad...and tho I'm not seeing any blood, I'm also not far enough along to feel the baby everday yet..so I'm beyond terrorified now.  I call the ob's office, tell them I'm cramping.  The nurse asks me if I'm dehydrated, I said no.  She said is it just coming and going, I said no, it's been constant for a day now.  She says come down.  So, I pack up Kait again.  We wait...they tell us the doc has been called out for a delivery, will be back in 1/2 hour.  No biggie.  Come back to say delivery is now an emergency csection, will be back in 2 hours.  I've waited this long, I'm staying.  They call me back, do the prelim's (only gained 2 lbs in a month-not bad..I'm still below my prepregnancy weight)...test my urine.  I get put in a room, the little nurse gal comes in (she's a sweetie) and says she wants to try for the heartbeat.  I lay down, digging my nails into the table, and close my eyes.  She tries the side the baby's usually on...nothing.  I can feel the tears streaming down the side of my face already.  She grabbed my hand and said 'relax'.  She tried the other side, and there...there was our little one, snuggled up.  Heartbeat in the 140's.  I just started bawling.  I had cried all the way there, cried in the room...I was just so sure this time...Kaitlynne gave me a tissue and said "That's good news, Mom".  The doc got there pretty soon after, asked me if I had been taking my antibiotic to prevent UTI's.  I said I had, but ran out Sunday.  He said I had a severe UTI (in just a matter of 2 days w/out the pill).  He gave me another script (and a script for my cold).  He was so excited because he saw I am 19 weeks...he couldn't imagine where the time was going.  I said it was fine with me...the faster the better, I want to hold our living, breathing baby.  So, that's my week thus far...

Also, Kait's speech teacher called today and said her HMO had been changed, was sure I already knew about it, but wasn't sure how she would be able to see her now.  I had NO idea what she was talking about.  I called her old HMO and found it only affects her speech/occupational therapy (thank GOD..I was panicking because of all the other doc's she see's connected to the current HMO).  So, will have to figure that out later (the speech).  Her schooled called, said they'd get her in for the FCAT, was agreeable to holding her back for 3rd grade again, and respected my wishes to not have her with the teacher she had before (I saw a report card that she got right after I pulled her out...teacher gave her an F in math and said 'she needs to learn her math facts'...isn't that what the school is for??? Yes, I work with her, but wtf are they doing????), and not to put her in class with Josh. 

It's just been a really draining few weeks, I guess...feels like forever...tomorrow's her speech and dentish appts (not sure how I'm working these out w/ the times..).  Also, my mom had to go to the ER today, they finally put her on insulin..aye...

Hoping and praying for better days to come...the New Year is starting off w/ a bang...