Recap

We went to Alex's niece's birthday party in Gainesville on Saturday.  It was at a place that not only had all the gear to play on, but play with.  Also leaned towards kids having fun, while learning something.  Ella (Alex's niece) had chosen a mad scientist theme for her party.  Above are pics.  We had a good time...I like Alex's sister-in-law, Jo, tho I don't get to see her often (they live there, plus she goes to school full-time, and works, along with 2 small kids).  Jo's parents were at the party, as well.  They're visiting from England, and her mom told me quite a bit about how it is there.  Said for us to make sure and let them know when we're going over to visit so we can stop in and see them--they were very nice people.  When we left, she touched my belly and said she was praying for a healthy little one for us.  I thought that was really sweet.

Yesterday...well...I talked with Carolyn last night.  Many many people sent well wishes via cards, emails, and I've heard postings on the Feb board (I haven't looked yet)...and Alex and I thank you all for them...I saved them to put into a scrapbook when I ever get around to doing that.  We dropped Kaitlynne off with my mom in the afternoon for an overnight (we needed a little time together, and I didn't want Kait to get upset if I did...she's seen enough of it already).  Alex and I went to the flea market, then walked around Walmart...ate at Olive Garden (mom gave us a giftcard for Christmas).  Just things to feel 'normal' at a time I don't think either of us is/was.  We came home, lounged around, enjoyed each other.  We've had a candle lit since yesterday morning (last picture) on a shelf with 2 little angel girls and a plaster molding of Kait's hand when she was little.  We'll keep it lit until Tuesday at midnight.

Altho I had moments where I felt like all was fine yesterday, I couldn't shake the feeling of guilt...alot of guilt...over losing her, over feeling this way while pregnant with another, over having a living child when some don't...I guess this is all part of it...

I guess that's all for now, we have to go pick up Kait from Nana's house.  *Hugs* and thank you to each of you personally.  Sabrina-I hope Angelina had a wonderful birthday, she most certainly deserves it.