Praising the toilet...

Anyone reading this who thinks I'm mentally unstable and unable to function..can go take a long walk off of a short pier (yanno who ya are *big wink*).

I've been so sick this morning (don't get too excited..I think it's sick from the hag getting ready to show).  I swear, another 7 days of that pain and misery...ugh...we'll see.

I'm feeling a little better at the moment-and this is a scary thought-the house is COMPLETELY quiet (well, ok..except for the dog snoring).  Alex was called back in to work to start clean-up, Kaitlynne is at school, and I'm here doing laundry, cleaning bathrooms, etc...it's great.  I appreciate the break to just-breathe.

I found out the other night that my ex (who long since disappeared after the state went after him for child support) was arrested for DUI and possession of marijuana back in August.  He bailed out of jail, and disappeared...now a warrant out for him.  I can't help but feel a little sorry for him...he wasn't always like that-he was a good man, with a clear-thinking mind.  Not now, tho....now, he's a bottle of vodka and a joint, trapped in a man's body.  Sad.  My daughter will never know him other then what she remembers from our time there before I left-and that's not happy thoughts, either.  Alex is a wonderful daddy to her-just sad it has to be this way with her natural father...or as she calls him, her 'birth' father (no idea where she got that from-she said it to me the other day).

Alex and I's 'anniversary' is Saturday.  We've spent exactly one year together..not ONE night apart since the night we met!  It's a wonderful feeling..we have so many good times together..we had a rocky start, but I'm glad I didn't bolt when I really wanted to.

We're going to Kotobuki (my favorite restaurant-a Japanese steakhouse) Saturday with a few friends to celebrate my bday on Monday, then Alex and I are going to a movie (of his choice, since I picked dinner) for our anniversary. 

I offered the new kitty on our local freecycle...he's a cutie and so affectionate, but he's just not 'doing it' for my 2 adult female cats.  They were here first, so I have to respect that.  Already had one lady who's going to talk to her husband-just want him to have a good home.

I've been talking to a few people that are 'new' to the angel mommy club.  I remember Niki telling me back when Marissa died how it helped 'her' to help 'me'.  I know now what she meant-it does help.  Makes you feel like you have a purpose for feeling the way you do, acting the way you do..it's so the 'new' gals know that they AREN'T going crazy, AREN'T doing something 'wrong'...it's ok.  It's all ok.  You talk, I'll listen.  I talk, you listen.  Tit-for-tat...and the beat goes on....