Don't know how to feel about it...

Chris Benoit, WWE wrestling superstar, and his family (wife and young son) were found dead today in their home.  My first thought was shock, and of course sadness.  I kept thinking carbon monoxide poisoning.  Now it's been released that it's a double murder-suicide.  He killed his child, his wife...and than later, himself.  I obviously know that someone has to be in such a deep depression that they can't think rationally to do something like this.  But I'm angry.  Like suicide isn't a selfish enough answer to problems, you kill your innocent son and wife??  I still hold much resentment towards my exhusband's exwife for killing herself and taking her son with her.  I just don't know how to feel.  He was one of my favorite entertainers, now I see him as some sort of monster.  Yet I know he had to have been troubled.  I don't know, it's all jumbled in my mind.  I pray for the family and friends left behind...

I'll post a *regular* entry in the next day or two, I just had to get this out.