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Wow, it's been awhile...I'll try to give a quick recap.  We're still anxiously awaiting our move.  My FIL can't seem to decide on where he wants to buy a hotel, so we're just...waiting.  It's nice having Alex home, for sure...it's made the first few months with the twin so much easier than it would have been.  It's just hard not knowing where we're going to be and when.  We've outgrown our current house, and we're greatly looking forward to no longer being cramped up in here.  My incision finally healed up (thank God, without any infection).  My blood pressure never did go back down after the babies, tho, so I had to go on medication for that.  They tested my thyroid yesterday, hoping to get the results back tomorrow.  I've never hoped for anything to be wrong before, but this would explain so much.  My anxiety levels have peeked, and I'm having a hard time with things right now.  Mostly because of the impending move, I think, but there's just alot going on.  I was offered a medication, but I'm not sure want to start it just yet.  The doc told me that *if* my thyroid levels are off, than it can cause anxiety, as well.  Anywho, hopefully know soon.

Kaitlynne is having a hard time in school right now.  She gets frustrated, so rather than ask questions, she's been lying about having/doing homework, arguing when someone tries to help, etc...  The ESE teacher they got this year was a very last-minute replacement, and I have to say, I'm really disappointed in her.  She has such a horribly negative attitude about Kaitlynne.  Even Kaitlynne's mainstream teacher has called to tell me that this ESE teacher is always talking negatively about Kaitlynne when she sees her, too, and she's tired of it.  I've gone to the VP, as has the teacher, but I don't know what will be done.  I thought we would have moved by now, and she wouldn't have to deal w/ her anymore.  Like the reg teacher says, Kait shouldn't have to deal with it at all...ugh, it's a mess.

Brandon is doing great, tho having a hard time with his molars coming in.  He's such a joy.  He just lights up when he see's Kaitlynne (she's a goofball for him).  I'm so proud of the way Kaitlynne has taken to her siblings.  I was so unsure, since she was my one and only for so long.  She's really hard to be around sometimes lately (a combination of things), but she still surprises me in good ways.  She's turning into quite a lovely young lady, too (something hard for me to watch, but happy at the same time...the bittersweet part of being a parent, I guess).  Brandon, tho, is doing well.  Climbs all over everything, walking/running everywhere. 

The twins.  Wow.  They aren't as hard as I thought they would be.  They tagteam us at times, but it's amazing have 2 little ones at one time.  They're so completely different.  Anne-Marie is our flirty little drama queen.  Gabriel is our deep thinker with a smile that lights up the room.  We had feared Anne-Marie was born with a dislocated hip, but thankfully it turned out ok.  Gabriel was born with torticollus.  We've been trying to do exercises and positioning at home until we can get him in for physical therapy (again, thought we'd be moved by now...I'm going to try and start it here anyway).  Gabriel has been smiling since 4 wks, and cooing like crazy since 5 wks.  Anne-Marie saved her pretty smile for about 6 wks, coo's very softly at you when you tell her what a pretty girl she is.

I'll add a few photos for y'all that aren't on my email lists.  Hope all are well :)

Kaitlynne's Halloween pic:

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Brandon's Halloween pic:

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Anne-Marie and Gabriel

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Like Noah's Ark, they came in 2's!

Just a quick update (I don't get much time online now lol).  We got to the hospital (on Aug 23) for our csection at 730am.  However, getting the IV in was another story (I have horrid veins).  It took 3 anesthesiologists almost 3 hours to get it in.  Needless to say, we lost our place for the OR, and had to wait.  We got in around 145 or so.  Spinal went fairly well (that part always scares the crap out of me).  They opted to do a classical incision this time (up and down vs side to side).  At that point, I didn't care, I just wanted my babies here.  Soooo, here's the stats:

Born at 237pm, Gabriel Roman Michael B.  He weighed 7lbs 3oz, 18.75'' long.  He's such a little peanut (which is what we call him...lol).  Clean bill of health :)

Born at 239pm (they had a time getting her out cuz of her size), Anne-Marie Aryanna Rose B.  She weighed in at a whopping 7lbs 14oz, 19.25'' long!  She actually eats less than he does, tho...LOL!  She had a slight heart murmur, but it wasn't detectable by the time we left the hospital.  She also has a hip that pops in/out easily that the ped is watching...hoping that corrects itself :(

Both took to the breast wonderfully, but as usual, the pain from the vasospasms and bleeding/cracked nipples was a bit much.  I now pumping, as well as supplimenting with formula.  They're such wonderful babies.  They let me 3-4 hours at a time at night!  Woohoo!  Kaitlynne adores them, she's all over them and in with me in the bedroom most of the day (I'm still resting from surgery).  Brandon usually doesn't notice them, but when he does he's very sweet with them (lays his head down on them to give hugs, or 'pets' them...lol).  He doesn't twitch at night when they get up, thank goodness.  They're all in our bed, too!  Me, who swore she'd never co-sleep, loves it...love having my babies near me.  The twins are in a co-sleeper type thing, Brandon is all up in Daddy's space (loves to snuggle up close to him). 

My incision has opted to not close up the way it should :(  It's not infected, thank God, and I'm praying it stays that way.  They did remove my staples last Friday, and I'm just keeping it clean right now.  I go back next Friday to have it checked.  I'm so scared it's going to get infected, I've heard horror stories :(  I've also been battling extreme back pain (which, the anesthesologist had told me that spinals can make already-existing back pain worse...he was right), and residual headaches (from the spinal).  I actually had a blinding migraine on Sunday when we were about to discharge.  I had to stay overnight again to get special meds (in an IV...which I had to get a new one done, it was horrid).  I am walking around good, tho.  Feels good to get around.  We went to the mall in the next town over and I walked it!  I cleaned my own kitchen!  I walked Wal-Mart to get groceries!  It's huge to me, since I was wheelchair bound everywhere for weeks, and couldn't bend over to even get my own clothes on.  All well worth it, tho, no doubt.

Now we're concentrating on the move.  We haven't heard a specific date yet, hoping my father-in-law will be down soon to talk about it.  My SIL in Canada did go into remission from the leukemia, however she was given a 14% chance of survival over the next 5 years :(  How horrible to have to hear that.  So, my FIL has been busy with that, of course, so we've not mentioned anything else.  My brother and Pete left for Missouri last Tuesday (they did come over Monday, lucky for them...I would have disowned him had they not).  Alex's brother left the day before for Kansas.  Sad, everyone's leaving. 

Kait's doing well in school, so far.  Updated her IEP (told the counselor I wanted it done before we left, since they knew her and I wouldn't have to fight for what I think she needs).  She's missed a few days already, tho.  I wish that didn't have to happen, but with babies coming and all these appts in another town, it's been hard not to keep her out sometimes.

Anywho, I guess that's about it...time to feed a couple of cuties :)  I'm going to add a pic of my friend, Kim, holding thebabies.  Anne-Marie is on the left, Gabriel on the right.

Bad Blogger..Bad Bad

Wow, it's certainly been awhile, hasn't it?  I'll try and do a summarized update here. 

We had Alex's daughter here for the summer.  She has since gone "home" (to a hotel room-we wanted to keep her here, but her mom finds that whopping child support check more important than her child's actual welfare, so she took her back anyway).  The girls were at each other a good deal of the time, too, which made things difficult.  They're both hitting the pre-hormonal stage (EEK!), and Katie has the added bonus of learning the 'tricks of the trade', so-to-speak, of a child from a divorced home.  The playing one off the other makes crap got old (tho I know it well, Alex isn't familiar with it so it was a cause of tension between he and I). 

Kaitlynne is doing well, overall.  She has been a TREMENDOUS help to me this summer around the house and with Brandon.  She's wonderful with him, and has gotten good at picking up where my body has told me to leave off at.  She now earns an allowance, which she enjoys.  Her attitude leaves alot to be desired, but I'm keeping in mind it's her age (and the end of summer vacation-she's bored!).  There's also so much going on with the babies coming and our impending move.  She did have one VERY LARGE meltdown last weekend.  We've hoped to move past it and that it won't be the step back that I thought it might be.  She starts school this coming Monday.  We've had a hard time with her being so upset that she won't have the same teacher as last year.  I figured atleast she'd have the same ESE teacher (also a wonderful person), but I was told by the Guidance Counselor that she, too, has moved on :(  I believe school starts in September up north, so hopefully she won't miss too much of the initial bonding that happens in the beginning of the year.

Now for the babies.  We did get transferred to the highrisk clinic that we didn't want.  My doc saw me on a Thursday, transferred me on a Friday...I was ok with it by then, however I wish he would have just done it face-to-face in the office so we could say our 'goodbyes'.  I needed insulin treatments badly, and this was the only way to go.  The new place told me I had to take the 3 hour glucose screening, which I refused.  I have Gestational Diabetes-period.  The testing makes me so incredibly ill, which I told them, and was pointless.  Soooo, they let me record my sugars for a week and went from there.  The babies gained 3lbs EACH in one months time, so I was getting incredibly worried about how this was going to go.  Thankfully, I got on insulin and the sugars have been under control for weeks now.  The babies growth has slowed down to a 'normal' pace.  Two weeks ago they were measuring 6.5lbs (girl) and 5.15lbs (boy).  By the doctors count, I just turned 36 wks on this past Tuesday, tho my count says I'll be 37 wks this coming Saturday.  Either way, we're all doing well.  I go weekly to my appointments, where they check them with ultrasound and NST's.  We have an amnio scheduled for next Wednesday, and if that shows lung maturity, then we'll be delivering our little ones on Thursday.  Hard to believe, in one week my child count will double!!

We also having our impending move stressing us out.  Alex has been home from work for a few weeks now, but has had to pick up the 'wifely' duties of the house, as I'm barely able to get around these days.  Not a whole lot of packing done yet.  We're moving to Maine in October sometime, don't know much else yet.  My SIL, who lives in Canada, has been diagnosed with leukemia.  Obviously, the families concern is with her and her family right now, so we have no idea about details as far as job and housing yet.

My brother is also packing it up and heading back to Missouri.  They just aren't making the money here that they were and can there, so they're selling their home before they go into bankruptcy with it.  They have the 'champagne taste on a beer budget' attitude, tho, so it's partially their own fault.  However, up there they can make up what they lose on their spending habits.

We also ran into Kaitlynne's brother, Matt.  I won't get into all the nonsense surrounding my exhusband, but he took full advantage of Matt and than tossed him aside.  The alcohol has completely consumed whatever might have been left of the man I knew.  Sad, really, but I'm happy Matt has seen it for what it is and has stepped back.  He's dating a girl who seems to think that walking on him is the answer, too, and I know he doesn't want to be alone...I'm hoping he can see her the same way, and end it.  He's been keeping in touch with us, tho...even came to Kaitlynne's birthday dinner, which made her very happy.  He's turned out to be quite a handsome young man, and actually fairly 'stable' for all he's been through.  I hope he can continue on the path he's on now...taking him up from the crud he's been in so far.

Anywho, I guess that's about all.  Congrats to Tina on having her baby girl, Megan, today (I haven't seen any stats yet, but so excited to see pics!!!).  I'll try to come back and add pics of us later :)  Take care, all. 

Don't know how to feel about it...

Chris Benoit, WWE wrestling superstar, and his family (wife and young son) were found dead today in their home.  My first thought was shock, and of course sadness.  I kept thinking carbon monoxide poisoning.  Now it's been released that it's a double murder-suicide.  He killed his child, his wife...and than later, himself.  I obviously know that someone has to be in such a deep depression that they can't think rationally to do something like this.  But I'm angry.  Like suicide isn't a selfish enough answer to problems, you kill your innocent son and wife??  I still hold much resentment towards my exhusband's exwife for killing herself and taking her son with her.  I just don't know how to feel.  He was one of my favorite entertainers, now I see him as some sort of monster.  Yet I know he had to have been troubled.  I don't know, it's all jumbled in my mind.  I pray for the family and friends left behind...

I'll post a *regular* entry in the next day or two, I just had to get this out.

 

 

Birthdays all-around

Well, I celebrated my...*deep breath* 30th birthday on the 2nd.  Pretty quiet night, which is a-ok!  We're going to combine b-day and Mother's Day for something when we get the time.  Things have been hectic. 

On May 4th, we found out that we're having boy/girl twins and that they're healthy as far as they can tell.  Baby boy (on the right...baby A) is 1lb and very active.  He's harder to feel kick because of the placenta lying lower.  Baby girl is also very active, and 14oz.

On the 6th, we had Brandon's birthday party.  I was a bit worried about the turnout at first, since people I had really expected to come-cancelled or didn't bother showing at all. However, many friends and family did show...and we had a wonderful time.  Little man dug right in to that cake, it was too cute.  Anyone reading that came, thank you for showing how much you care...it was more than appreciated!  He had a wonderful birthday (actually on the 8th).

We've learned that we might be moving a bit sooner than we thought, soooooooo we're going to start going thru room-by-room to clean some of this crap out.  Amazing how quickly it accumulates.  We'll definitely be here long enough to have the babies, but we hadn't expected a move until next year some time.  We'll see, tho, nothing written in stone.

I guess that's about it for now.  I included a couple of bday pics. 

3 wonderful years that weren't stolen (like my &$*# purse).

Just a quick update.  Bad first.  Alex and I went to Orlando on Saturday, had a great time.  Came back late, and stopped at Walmart to get something for Brandon.  As we were leaving, we managed to get right in the middle of something close to a riot?  There was about 25 young girls/boys there, yelling at the managers (one was telling them to get out, other was on the phone with the police).  It was pretty scary, and all I could think of was to get Brandon OUT (Kaitlynne was at my mom's).  So, we grabbed little man, our stuff, and darted (there were about 25 more outside, yelling, trashing the place).  Found out the next day that in the rush, I had left my purse in the cart :(  Of course it wasn't at Walmart, Alex even went and helped go thru garbage cans outside.  When I filed the police report, I just said I was at Walmart that night and every officer I spoke to, knew what I was talking about.  I'm one of those dumbies who carried SS cards (everything else can be taken care of, I was freaking because of those, tho).  My bank acct and cell phone hadn't been touched, so I am *hoping* that whoever took it looked for cash and trashed everything else.  It's been a nightmare the last couple of days.  I've taken care of about 3/4's of it.  Sucks big time, but we're all safe...that's what matters most. 

On a happy note, today is the anniversary of sorts, celebrating 3 years with Alex.  We haven't spent one night apart (loon's going crazy over that part, I know) since we met at Dunkin Donuts for coffee that night.  They've been the most powerful 3 years of my life, and I can't wait to spend many more with him...he's my best friend, and so much more.  I love you, honey <3

Brandon's bday party is this Sunday, and he'll be a year on the 8th.  Where did the time go???  Everyone else and everything else is going well :)

*Prayers for Lissa, who had a stroke this past week...God speed for a full recovery!*

That's about it, hope all are well in cyberland :)

Bad Blogger...

Wow, I didn't realize it had been so long since I wrote in here (even with a few people emailing me to get it together... ha ha).  Let's see if I can update...

Kaitlynne is doing wonderfully in school.  Not only did she get Student of the Month, but she won an award for Citizenship again (good behavior), and got to attend a really neat after school party.  She's made friends with a girl in her class, which is good to see, as well.  She just got home today, actually, from an overnight Girl Scout camp (I was paranoid, and apparantly she was a bit weepy, too...but we both survived).  She's growing up :*)  Always talking of how cute Johnny Depp is, always watching POTC in the car *sigh*.  She's a huge help to me with Brandon (thank goodness, I'm so tired...lol).

Brandon...wow, he's doing so much now!  He crawls EVERYWHERE, and is pulling himself up and cruising around the furniture.  We've even seen him stand alone for a few seconds!  He's going to be 1 next month, can you believe it?!  We're having a small party at a local park the weekend before.  He wakes up every morning with a smile on his face :)

Alex is doing well.  His work schedule just changed this week for the good and the bad.  He now works until 230am (doesn't go in until 530pm), but has Saturday and Sunday off (as well as every other Friday).  I'm bummed that he won't be here when we go to sleep :(  However, I'm happy to have him back on the weekends--we can finally do things that we couldn't do before. 

I'm doing ok.  Been battling a few head/chest colds (they don't last long, but the cough is hanging on).  I read that people pregnant with multiples have an even lower immune system...blah.  My OB is sending me to the next town over for a consult with the high risk team.  I'm not happy about it, as this is the same team that delivered my 1st child...anyone who knows about THAT horrific nightmare, knows why I do NOT want to go back.  I told my OB this, and he promised it's nothing more then a consult and doesn't see any reason why they'd find any fault in his care.  I told him that I, his PATIENT, don't find any fault...anyway, I'm going next week.  He said they'll do an ultrasound there, or he'll order one the following week when I see him.  My weight was up, then I lost like 8lbs in 2 weeks.  My BP is up, back on meds.  That was another problem, he put me on a high dose of meds that I didn't agree well with.  I've taken that much before, but not all at once like had me take it.  I showed signs of overdosing on them, tho it was a pretty normal dose to offer.  I stopped taking the morning dose and noticed an almost immediate change in how I felt (I was so bad I had to get help to get up to go to the bathroom because my joints felt like jello).  I told him, and we split the dosaging up (knocking out one dose).  I've been feeling pretty good since then (minus these idiot colds).

We had my brother and Pete over for Easter (tho that was not an easy task).  I had asked them to bring a trailor over because we have 2 old recliners we REALLY need hauled off.  In return, I lent them my carpet cleaner.  Well, no trailor.  I got a bit annoyed, since when Pete's family asks for anything at all...they drop what they're doing and haul ass over there to help them (even if it's another state).  I had a bad day Friday with other things, and called them up...said I want my damn cleaner back and they best not be letting the neighborhood use it.  Now while I called back on Saturday saying I was sorry for HOW I said things, I did mean what I said.  They turned in the cleaner w/out much to say to Alex at work, and that's that.  Oh well.  I'm sure we'll hear from them at Christmas *eyeroll* (I'm still mad that Scott has made NO effort to help or even stay in contact with our mother...).

Other then that, I can't think of much anything else going on.  Hope all are well (I put a few pics up there for ya).  Toodles.

Oops

I forgot to add the due date.  Varies by how ya look at it, but I think the doc is sticking with Sept 7th, tho we'll go in August.  Heard the heartbeats a few weeks ago, so far-so good :)  Thanks everyone!

I've been slackin'

Wow, it's been awhile.  Trying to think of all that's happened in over a months' time.  I can post here, now, that we're expecting again.  This was NOT planned.  We were preventing, but someone had other plans, I guess.  Not only are we expecting, but we're expecting TWO.  We found out on Marissa's 2nd angel day...  We're happy, but nervous about any physical complications with myself and/or the babies.  I'm also nervous about having 3 little one's to care for!  LOL! 

I'm sure I'm going to miss things.  Let's see, Kaitlynne got student of the month for February (so proud!!!!!).  She tells anyone she sees (so do I...lol).  I was told she did well on her FCAT, which was also great news.  Other then that, she's 9 going on 21.  Ha!

Brandon's doing wonderful.  He has 3 teeth, total, now.  He was crawling backward at a fast rate, and turning all over the place...finally started going forward a few days ago.  He always gets where he wants to go, so that's what matters.  He's trying to pull himself up on things, lil bugger :)  I can't believe he'll be 1 soon!!!!

Everything else is going same ole' same ole'.  Alex and I had our anniversary in February...went out to dinner with our little chaperone...lol!  We also attended a charity auction and won 2 tickets to an FSU/Duke game, and 2 tickets to the Pepsi 400!!!  Can't wait :)

I guess that's about it...short 'n' sweet for now.  Oh, on a sad note, someone trespassed on our property and stole Blackie off our porch :****(  I put up signs everywhere and checked all the local shelters...no luck.  I just pray whoever took her has been good to her...she's such a wonderful little dog :***(

Time flies...

To update from last time, Kaitlynne got 3 more awards at school at the big assembly the next week!  Reading, Citizenship (behavior), and Improvement!  She was so excited, and I was tearing-up :*)  Very proud of her!

Marissa's 2nd angel day came and went...and we survived yet again.  We honor her from the 29th (the day she is believed to have passed) to the 31st (the day I delivered her).  We lit our candle, cried a little, and thanked her for bring her beautiful brother to us and taking care of her sisters.  Hard to imagine her being 2 years old...forever a sleeping angel baby...

We love and miss you, little one.  "See you on the other side..."

Very proud mommy-moment :)

Just a quick entry, but wanted to say that my precious girl got a Math achievement award today at school!  Alex, Brandon, and myself all went to see it, she was soooo happy.  I almost cried myself :*)  Kaitlynne had an F at the beginning of the year in math...she's been really trying hard.  Tomorrow we have a Girl Scout function, but we're doing something special after that.  This is two weekends in a row she's gotten something special (she had a really good report card last week). 

We did go to the new doctor, and he was so much better then the dippy here.  I've moved all of her care to this place...and was quite happy to tell the other place goooooodbye.

Brandon's doing wonderful.  He has 2 bottom teeth (he worked quite hard for them), and is showing interest in crawling (he's doing an inch-worm type scooting...it's so cute!).

We traded the Pacifica for an Expedition last weekend...I LOVE IT!  Got it in a gold color, too, so it doesn't show the dirt so bad out here.  :)~

I guess that's about all for now...hope all are well out in cyber-land :)

A rarity...

You won't see me say this often, if ever again...but...

 

WOOHOO GATORS!!!!  CHOMP CHOMP!!!!

Better and better :)

LMAO at your comments, Loon.  You just don't ge it, do ya?  Everyone can read my journal and see that everything you say is false.  I just spoke to my father 2 days ago :)  We didn't move to another state like his exwife did;  our life is here (jobs, homes, etc...).  Doesn't make his daughter any less important...by saying that parents that don't move when they're kids move don't love them, you offend a great deal of the US.  I wasn't jealous of Kim's twins, I couldn't see any baby after just losing Marissa (oh, and btw, when I say I didn't care for myself properly with her, I mean that I had GD and didn't get treated because I didn't know)...pretty normal behavior.  Should I have gone on like nothing at all happened, like you?  You come on to a message board on the supposed day of your father's funeral to bash me?  Obsess much?  LOL!  Wow...it's actually odd to see how you can read a simple sentence and completely twist it into something so...dramatic.  It's like you really want to believe that I'm "on-the-edge", that my family is living in poverty, that my daughter's illness has reached a level like yours.  In reality (a word you might have to Google, since I know you aren't familiar with it), you're completely wrong.  You should up those meds you speak of, honestly.  My husband doesn't rescue me from myself, he completes me.  You sit here spewing that I should be what, alone with my child?  Why?  So I can grow old and be a bitter old hag like you?  I should throw away a beautiful family because you're jealous you can't have it?  Get a grip.  Your job isn't to protect children.  You LIVE on this computer.  I invited you to share your spew with the blog readers...your vile that you pass from one board to another, might as well bring it here, since you just sit and wait for another entry so you can twist it into something completely different.  What you do...the things you say...they are harassment.  Try and look at it any way you want to justify it, but that's the bottom line.

For the other's reading this, getting a kick out of her lunacy, you can find more on the aol message board "The Giving Tree Talk".  She has MANY screen names (she has to keep changing them because everyone blocks her, so she has to get around our filters by coming up with new names), but her latest is WinifredDarty.  Do an author search.  You'll see the things she REALLY says about my children (including Marissa).  They aren't 'oh he's beautiful', or 'oh she's just a child needing help'.  She's disgusting with her words of innocent children.  Marissa's nothing more then a bunch of passed tissue, right Nat?  I killed her by overeating or something like that... 

Here's the link to that board :) The Giving Tree Talk  For Nat, please interpret the following sentence into your lala talk:  The sky is blue.  Must mean that I'm about to off myself, right?  HAHAHA!  Go ahead, comment away, Loon.  I'm done with ya.  This blog isn't for you, tho you obviously look at it like it's some sort of Bible to you.  You should seek help before you cross that line...the one where I call all the people that you say you have to call on your 'trolls'.  HAGD, Loon (oh...and try SIGNING OFF....could do wonders for your lack-of-love-life...perhaps you'd stop being so envious of mine).

Yet another s/n

Lookie folks, the loon has made yet another screen name and come to post after I called her cowardly over and over.  Let's go thru this one, slowly so she can understand it :)

1)  Never said Katie was going to be 'dumped off'...yes, her mother and stepfather are broke due to their own VERY poor decisions, and we were happy to take her in.  They changed their minds to keep that child support check coming in.

2)  Marissa's death is believed to be in part to me having Gestational Diabetes, but not being diagnosed or treated...not sure where you were going with that one, trying to make me feel like I was at fault?  Keep trying.

3)  Never once said I was envious of Kim carrying 2 kids to term (by the way...she has 4 children...read more carefully).  I think I might have said that I was envious of the innocense of being pregnant and not knowing that something could very well happen late in pregnancy...?  Hmm...not sure.

4)  We lost nothing in the Hurricanes whatsoever.  Our old house did have some minor roof damage that the landlord fixed.  One of the family businesses took a hit from a tornado, tho.  I'm sure that's what you meant :)

5)  My FIL has never EVER bailed us out of anything.  We've never asked for any help, nor do we plan on it.

6)  You don't need to have a teaching degree to homeschool a child.  BTW, I have a college degree (YES, dippy, a real one!), and I'm quite capable of following a basic curriculum, tho I used my own and she did great with it.  Oh, and how nice of you to say that I took her out because of people that didn't want to be around HER.  Quite the opposite, I didn't want her around some of THEM.  You're in Jersey, I wouldn't try bragging about the school systems in your area, either.

7)  We get along with the neighbors (family).  Everyone has moments where they don't agree (should we discuss your father on here??) on things...difference with us is we wereadult about it, talked about it, moved on.  My SIL and I talk several times a day, have our girls in scouts together, etc...  Your "grasping-at-straws" approach is really showing.

8)  My depression.  Still waiting to see where I'm so down.  Have a day or two where I'm not feeling it?  Yeah...I believe that's normal (perhaps why you aren't familiar with it?).

9)  My ex isn't in prison.  He did go to jail, tho.  That doesn't reflect on myself or my daughter.  Quite the contrary...I could see the road he was going down and got us out while I still could.  He's in his 50's, too, actually...same generation as you.  Ahhh, the irony.

I'll leave ya with that, because I actually got bored with responding to you, as it's the same crap every day anyway.  Get a life, Nat.  Seriously.  You are beyond obsessed, and I think it could be bordering on harassment?  That's illegal, isn't it, Nat?  I'm sure you could tell me all about the appropriate people to contact to keep the wierdos like yourself away from me :)  HAGN, and thanks for stopping by!

A little update

I was able to get Kaitlynne into see a new psych in the next town over.  They were not impressed with the tactics used by her current doctor.  Her old doctor had his secretary call me and say that since she wasn't receiving services there, he couldn't help at all (that was a bit disheartening...all I wanted was referrals to people he trusted, nothing more).  I would have thought after 4 years of treatment there, they could help a bit more.  The gal I talked to said she didn't even know where to start in referring me @@. 

The kids are both sick (Brandon's worse then Kaitlynne).  It started with Katie when she was down (we have no insurance for her here, so we couldn't do much more then OTC meds...it's not an ER-worthy cold).  I took them both to the pediatrician, got meds for both.  Kaitlynne woke up sounding much better--Brandon doesn't, tho :(  I'm going to give it one more day, tho.  With the meds and the humidifier going for him, see how he does.  Alex had it for a few days, but got over it.  I feel like I'm just getting it now, tho...sore throat :(

For Natalie...I was just looking over my last entry...where does it say anything about anyone getting 'dumped' off?  Where does it say I don't do anything for Kaitlynne, that she's in a horrid homelife and that I shouldn't have kids with me because I'm so unstable?  Where does it say that my life is miserable, and I never have a good thing to say about it ever?  Oh, and for the folks reading this, apparantly if you have more then one child it's because you didn't have the 'courage' to love just your first born.  Did you know that the thing written in my journal sound alarms to our resident looney?  That she feels like she should 'intervene' and call Dept. of Children and Family on me because I'm such a horrible mother?  You all read the same journal here, right?  LOL!  Come on, Natalie...post some of your rantings here!  Please!  Why save it for a board where you have your bought friends to say everything you do is ok?  Coward, you are.  A pathetically, envious coward.  You say you stopped living my life long ago?  You were never lucky enough to be where I am...and with your wacked-out outlook on the world,you never will.