My son will finish up what breastmilk I have pumped and in the freezer tonight and that will be it...no more breastfeeding. The thrush that I've been battling for 3 months has now gone ductal and the pain is blinding, whether I'm feeding him or just sitting here. I'm so upset, I can't stop crying. This was an extremely hard decision to make, and I'm PISSED. Why this month? My insurance picks up again next month, so why??? WHY?! It's not fair. I've tried everything under the freaking sun except the PRESCRIPTION that I can't GET until next month! I'm not even sure how I'm going to get rid of this when I'm not breastfeeding him. He's on a script right now, and I hope it gets rid of it for him, too...he's miserable. Altho everyone is telling me otherwise, I feel like a failure. I had SO wanted this. Brandon has THRIVED on my breastmilk, he's huge and perfect! It's not fair. I know it's not the end of the word, but breast feeding mom's that read this will know what I mean. I've been cheated. Cheated of the special bond I created with my son while I nourished him from my own body, the way God wanted it.
I'm in so much physical pain it hurts just to sit here. 2 more feedings left of breastmilk, and done. I hate this. I'm miserable over it.
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((((((((((((((((((Becky)))))))))))))))))))))))))
I'm so sorry.
Don't beat yourself up. WHat you have given him has benifitted him already. He has already gotten all kinds of good stuff from you! Relax. Heal and enjoy cuddling him and loving him. HUGS!
Hi, just wanted you to know that both of my infant sons had thrush as infants. I breastfed and I know what you are going through. My pediatrician told me to go the the pharmacy and get Gentian Violet. It comes in a little bottle, it is purple, and it costs under $2.00. You apply this to your nipple and to the inside of the baby's mouth and ( I am trying to remember how many times you do this)-well, anyways, it works and it takes care of it pretty fast, almost immediately from what I remember. Give it a try, I hope this tidbit helps you out. Good Luck! Oh, and by the way, it stains so watch out while you use it. And also, treat any artificial nipples he may have used because it will keep coming back.
I'm sorry sweetheart =( Ima few days late I kno, I keep forgettin to switch the update to this name
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