Free at last..for now

I'm putting what I posted on a couple of boards already, I'm a bit tired (crazy couple of days).  Thanks to all who sent wellwishes and prayers, they are all readily accepted :)  Thanks to Jennifer for calling (alot...I'm sorry I didn't get to ya everytime!) and checking up on us and updating for those who are following.  *HUGS*

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 Hey y'all :)  Wanted to say thanks to Jennifer for updating (my phone is DEAD, and I saw you tried to call earlier..it's charging!!), and thanks to everyone who's said prayers and sent emails/cards, definitely appreciated and nice to come home to :)
 
I went for a reg appt on Monday with my OB, and my sugars were running nearly 400, and the endo I was being referred to was backed up.  So, in the hossy we went.  They started the routine (accuchecks, diet, insulin boosters) until we've managed to get them in an area around 100-150 (still high, but working on it).  Today was pretty rough, tho...my OB came in, sat down across from Alex and I, and had a look on his face I had only seen once before, and my heart sank.  Thankfully, there's nothing wrong with this baby.  However, he reviewed the medical chart from Marissa (I was being seen by specialist at nationally-known hospital), and see's where many things were missed with the pregnancy.  It's his opinion (which I trust completely-don't down me, he's a fantastic doctor), that Marissa's death was due in part to me having uncontrolled/untreated (and undiagnosed) gestational diabetes.  Hearing that was like hearing it all for the first time all over again.  After the first 2 minutes of shock, I just started crying.  It can't be proven, of course...and nothing will bring her back...but it was easier thinking it was all just an 'accident', not knowing it could have possibly been prevented.  Anywho, I won't get into that (he gave details as to how/why he thought so, but I really don't want to discuss them right now).   I can't thank him enough for following-up with me, tho.  I technically passed my first one hour test at 28 weeks (have to get 140 or below, I got 139), and he could have said 'good enough' and been done with it.  Instead, he ordered another 1 hour a couple of weeks later, which I failed, and then a 3-hour, which I also failed.  I told Alex I'm going to rally (tho I may only be one voice here) that the 1-hour be given twice, as GD can show up after the 28 week test.  I have a strong family history of diabetes, as well as other risk factors that went unnoticed (and I didn't know to push anything).  I do now, tho...and I will.
 
He has now said we won't be having the c-section on the 22nd of May, but sooner...he's planning around 37 weeks (I'll have an exact date next Wednesday when I see him in his office).  He had wanted me to stay a few more days, but said he was confident in me when I said I could do this at home and would keep on top of it 100%.  Baby is measuring in at 6lbs right now, passing his/her BPP and NSTs with flying colors.  They either weren't able or didn't tell us the gender, which is just fine...I've actually gotten pretty excited about finding out at 'the moment'.  Anywho, I did get on insulin (insurance is messing with me about supplies, but hope to have that fixed by tomorrow...I have the starter kit from the hossy, so I'm ok for a couple of days).
 
I have lots of mail and such to catch up on, so if I take a little bit getting back to you, have faith that I will :)  I have my breastfeeding class tomorrow (I'm so excited!).  *Hugs* and thanks again :)