Hospital..again :(

Ok, start with Monday's adventure first.  My engine light had come on in my car, so my brother told me to take it to Autozone, have it hooked up, see what's wrong.  Guy says its the #4 cylinder (either plug or wire).  So, I buy both since my brother is going to fix it, rather have the parts there now.  Get to my brother's house, pop the hood, and low-and-behold 3 of the 6 wires had been EATEN!  Petey tried to say it was my cat, I said no way does a cat do that.  Then I look around the hood, and see sunflower seeds...son of bytch, the RAT!  My mom had dumped her 2 pet rats on us, they got out in the garage, we caught them and threw them out in the front yard.  The cats went after them, so I caught one of them and put it in a smaller cage (will be getting rid of it soon), but the other one went under the car (didn't know it went IN the car).  Anyway, the bastard ate the 3 wires, plus started in on the air intake hose, and ate the sheathing off another hose.  The little rodent cost 40 bucks worth of wires!  Anywho, car's running good now (thanks to Scott and Petey). 

Ok, now to Tuesday's adventure.  I woke up around 2am to use the restroom and sat on the side of the bed for a minute.  Alex asked if I was ok, I said I was feeling so nauseaus...but I was able to lay back down, fell back asleep.  Well, woke up again at 430am and BARELY made it to the bathroom before vomiting everywhere!  I ran a hot bath, soaked, thinking this was just a one-night thing.  Well...it wasn't...I just kept vomiting...and my back and abdomen started hurting so bad, and my face broke out in this little rash..?  Anyway, I had been calling my OB in Orlando forever, finally got one to call me back.  They said go to the hospital asap since the signs that the flu shows can also be labor signs.  They wanted me to go to the hospital in Orlando, there was no way I was making it that far, so we went to ORMC here.  Went straight up to labor & delivery, got hooked up to the monitor...and vomited like mad.  I had to tell Alex to leave, I was afraid he'd vomit just being there.  Well, finally got calmed down enough to get to monitor babes, and she's fine...got pretty 'upset' with all the ruckus going on, but she finally relaxed and evened out.  So, they sent me back downstairs.  Got back in pretty quick, and was given the first of 3 IV's.  This one was put in the underpart of my wrist (OUCH).  I started getting Saline, and also got Demerol for the backpain (never had the before...stopped the pain enough to make me sleep..lol), and got Phenegran for the nausea (oh this was the lifesaver!).  They ran all kinds of tests, including a ultrasound of my gallbladder (came back good) and of babes (she's already 4 and a 1/2 lbs!!), also doing well.  Came back down stairs, my IV fell out..so, another nurse put one in the back of my right hand...the vein blew out.  So, the 'guru of IVs' came in and put one in and BAM all my fluids flowed freely..shoulda gotten him first!  Did a pelvic exam, everything's closed up nicely (thank God!), but my cervix was very red and inflamed and my discharge had changed colors (isn't that a nice lil tidbit of info for y'all..lol).  I'm already on an antibiotic for the rest of the pregnancy tho for UTI's, so they said they'd let me know if there was anything wrong with that discharge, or if it was just because of the infection from the possible flu? 

Alrighty, that's enough for now.  Tomorrow is another 'big' appointment in Orlando, but thank goodness mom is going to watch the girls for us.  They'd DEFINATELY drive us nuts if we took them to sit in a lobby for hours on end. 

Okies..I'm outta here for now.  *Toodles*

Bah humbug!

Christmas day:  Kids got up around 8am (I was up at 7).  As SOON as they were told they could come out for their presents, Kaity says, "I BETTER have gotten jewelry!"-auto jump on my nerve.  Then, after they open everything, Kaitlynne says, "Where's the rest of it?"-the whole day just started going to shyt at this point.  We got ready and went over to Alex's brother's house for 'brunch'.  The girls trash the joint, and I catch mine trying to TAKE something from one of Alex's nieces!  I was HUMILIATED!!!  I smacked the shit outta her hand when we got outside to leave, I just couldn't believe it.  Then, we go over to Kim's mom's house, and I catch Kaity digging thru one of the kid's stockings looking for stuff.  Oh, I left out an important part in there...before going to anyone's house, we went to the hotel (had to follow Nick to Adam's house).  As soon as Kaity see's Martha (Nick's mother-in-law-of-sorts), she says, "Where's my presents?"  Alex and I about died (Martha didn't get her anything, duh!), so as soon as Martha closes her door, I get BOTH of the kids aside (knowing that Kaitlynne will be the next to do this), and say DO NOT under ANY circumstances ask anyone for presents, that is so RUDE!!!!  So, we go around the corner to Nick and what do ya know, BOTH of the girls go asking for presents!  Alex and I didn't know about this part until later, or I would have told Nick not to give them a DAMN thing!  Needless to say, they were totally ungrateful, rude, mean-spirited BUTTWADS!  They have already lost one present (yep, one is getting given back to Santa..their 'fur-real kitties'..one of the 'big' gifts), and they have not been allowed to open any more of their gifts to play with today.  Kaitlynne has NEVER acted like this, and Alex swears Kaity hasn't, either.  It was so embarrassing, and all I could think of is how a child's behavior reflects on the parent.  I must have screwed up royally somewhere this year.  Maybe trying too hard to compensate for it being such a rough year for Kaitlynne, as far as all the changes...I dunno. 

Anyway, we're finally getting a break.  They have been in their room for an hour now.  Alex is *supposed* to be watching football, but I hear him snoring from here.  I'm just goofing off on here, relaxing.

It's almost too embarrassing to print this journal entry...people see how our kids acted.  I was told by quite a few people that we weren't alone yesterday, something in the water with the kids being like this.  But...I feel better airing it out.  Going to go get the digi-cam outta the car and get the pics on here that I took yesterday.  Speaking of the damn car, the engine light is on today and it's running like shyt.  So, gotta get it to the shop tomorrow and pray they get it done by Wednesday so I can go to Orlando....and of course Saturday we take Kaity back and need a reliable car...UGHHHHHHHHHH!  It did get me to Walmart to get some cheap Christmas stuff tho.  I dunno...I just know that for the money we paid for the warranty, it BETTER be something that's covered!!!

Eh, I'm done..for now anyway.  *Toodles*

Quick late-night Update

K it's 1:49am, Christmas Eve, we just finished all our wrapping (except each other's gifts, doing that later, of course), thank you God!!!!  I can't believe it, but Alex's dad gave him a Christmas bonus, so he stopped off to get me something at Walmart tonight..he already got me the Gameboy (as said before, not his first choice in gifts..yadda yadda..kinda something I picked out for myself).  Anyway, he was like, "I'm not going to wrap it..."  I said, "Hell you aren't!  I was with a 'man' for 9 years who never got me anything!  I want to unwrap something, too!".  That makes it sound like I want the material inside (won't say I don't), but that's NOT the important part.  The important part is, a man that I'm with actually went out of his way to think of me and something I'd like.  Hard to explain it..those who've known me awhile know what I'm talking about tho...

Anywho, had another NST appointment today in Orlando.  I took Kaitlynne with me, Alex took Kaity with him to work.  Best thing that could have happened, my kid gets bored enough...Anywho, I get in for my NST, baby is moving EVERYWHERE.  She's flipping back and forth from side to side AND she had the hiccups, so they couldn't get a good reading until 45 minutes later.  They did see that I was having 'measurable contractions' and wanted me to stay so the doc could make sure the shop was still closed, so to speak.  Luckily, it didn't take long to get back to see her and it was indeed closed.  I was measuring at 33.1 weeks (about 2 weeks ahead of schedule), but they weren't concerned by that.  Had protein in my urine, but no more then I've been having; BP was 136/92...they're a little concerned by that, considering all the meds I'm taking.  Oh, and THANK GOD, the sugar-test I did last week came back fine.  The BP is enough to deal with without gestational diabetes.  So, I go back next week (of course), for another NST, to see the doc, and for another sono, where they'll check baby's breathing pattern and size.  She feels huge...even Alex says she's getting big, my belly like...'popped' again!  My weight-gain is good tho, happy about that. 

I can't remember if I mentioned this already or not, but Alex's dad knows now that I'm pregnant.  Most people can't believe he didn't know before or that Alex didn't tell him, but there were reasons (I suppose..I didn't really get into it).  Anyway, he knows..and didn't lecture Alex, which surprised him.  Kinda hope he doesn't save the lecture for a rainyday, so to speak.  Jump Alex when he's not looking...

Something else I want to write about, but I want to have my thoughts together before I do, so that'll be next entry.  (Not bad, Alex, so calm down...LOL).  That's it for me, I can't see straight.  *Toodles*

S.O.S.-different day

Found out some pretty sad news about someone I went to school with.  Won't give out details on here, but it was something I wouldn't wish on anyone I don't like.  Tried to tell someone else that knows this person about it, but...that person is too busy being pissed at the wrong person.  Not going to beg to share the info, was just asked to pass it along. 

Feels wierd...to have something so strong in your life one minute, then treated as tho you never existed the next.  I guess that tells me right there what I meant all along...disposable.  Eh, blah...moving on to more interesting things...

Had the bday party for Alex's niece today..was actually pretty fun, tho I know Alex's dad looked right at my stomach..kinda hard to hide it now, it's OUT THERE..LOL.  I'm waiting for the backlash..I'm sure it won't be long now.  I think I heard his dad asking him about his other kids today, too...guessing that was for me to hear..whatever..lol.  We got Gabby the lil dinosaur from the wiggles..she was all like 'ohhhh doty! (dorothy)' LOL!  She's so dang cute. Had a good time :)

Then I took the girls to the mall to get Kait some shoes (part of the 50 bucks her dad sent via his love and affection for the year--no need to pay child support with that!).  Her feet when from a size 1 at the beginning of the school year to a size 2 and a 1/2!  No wonder she had blisters...  The girls got to see Santa, too...Kaity got up there, talked to him, then turned around as she was leaving and hollered, 'Hey Santa, I like your balls!'...was...fun..LOL!  Kaitlynne was so serious, had to tell Santa what she wanted.  Both were looking on the roof for the reindeer when we left...LOL!

Anywho, that's bout it.  Alex and I have just 2 more gifts to buy (I have to get Alex's, maybe tomorrow...).  Now we just have to wrap all this!  Ugh!  *Toodles*

 

I dunno...

Talked to mom...she did go to the bank Friday, and thank GOD they took off all the overdraft fees, she now owes next to nothing.  She still has to cover 2 checks that didn't go thru, but that's minor, can deal with that as it comes.  That was great news, for sure.

Scott and Petey took 2 of the puppies up to his parents' (met in Alabama).  They were so dang cute!  Donald's brother bought the other one for his wife...which turned out to be really cool, cuz she had lost a dog a couple of years ago (got hit by a car) and it happened to be a Pomeranian (Donald's brother didn't know that at the time), so she was thrilled!  We'll be taking Prince and Blackie after the first of the year;  everyone wanted me to breed them one more time, but poor Blackie, she just couldn't take another one.  That poor thing justtttt pulled thru this one.  So, I called Neuter Commuter to set up the 'nip and tuck' sessions for them both...hopefully, it will calm Prince's crazyass down.

Be glad when the girls adjust to being together again.  Right now, they're doing their best to push our buttons, and each others..LOL.  Lil nerds.  Good they have each other to play with, tho.  Keeps them busy. 

Baby's been moving like MAD today!  I keep getting crampy feelings in my lower belly, but I'm thinking it's just stretching.  She's definately growing, goodness!  Get an ultrasound in 2 weeks, see how much she's grown.  My weight's been really good, so it's mostly baby that I've got.  Be glad when she drops, too...so hard to breathe..LOL.

Got a free sample of catnip in the mail yesterday.  This...is some funny shyt!  Girlsquirrel is an ADDICT!  She just can't get enough, I have to tear her away!  Smokey, he just got..mellow..LOL.  I haven't tried it on Sugar yet..she's neurotic enough, not sure if she needs the added stimulation.

Found out we're going to Alex's brother's (Adam) house for Christmas.  That should be neat...I've met everyone except Alex's youngest brother, Luke, but haven't really spent time with any ofthem except Nick and Patria.  Then we'll go to Kim's mom's house.  Probably have Christmas Eve with my mom, Scott, and Petey.  Haven't figured all that out yet, just never enough hours in the (holi)day!  I'm still in shock that baby will be here in 8 weeks.....

Well, guess that's enough for today.  I'm crocheting baby a blanket, got a good hunk of it done today, going to go work on it some more until Alex gets home.  *Toodles*

Honkey Dorey

We went to Kaitlynne's Christmas party at school yesterday...was pretty fun.  Her teacher really went all out.  Parents brought food, but the teacher got all her students a lil gift bag that included an ornament with their names and the year written on it, and some candy.  Another child gave out Christmas cards with candy, and then the kids did their secret santa swap.  Kaitlynne got the game checkers.  After all this, they let you check your child out early if you wanted to, so we went ahead and took her so we could go get Alex's check and get on our way up to Georgia. 

We got up there around 3:15pm (and I soon realized we had driven much further then half way...).  He had told her to be there around 3:30p-4:00p and to call when she got close.  Not only did she NOT call, but she didn't show up til 5:15p.  Then had the nerve to start chewing Alex's ass because he mentioned it to her.  He won't argue in front of Kaity (good thing), but he had best have a nice convo when he calls her.  We also found out from Kaity she didn't even go to school yesterday, so there was no reason for them being late.  Bytch was wearing this barely-there tank top (she's 8 mos preggo and NOT a thin lady, by far), and no bra.  Alex said she looked like a slut.  I was thinking a skank.  Whatever tho.  I don't give a shyt what she was wearing, it's her bullshyt that we have to deal with.  So, when we take Kaity back we will be rethinking the drop off point and we'll be atleast 2 hours late on purpose.  Let her sit her ass there and wait.

Anywho, today was a lazy day.  Didn't do much but watch tv with Alex, girls played outside in the backyard.  We went to dinner, then to Wally world. 

Guess that's bout it.  Just realized that only 8 more weeks til babes is here...and I have nothing ready in the nursery...

Today's Appt

Alrighty...please note arrival time at HROB in Orlando to be at 9:24am (left here at 8:00am).

From there, I sat until 11:30am to get the NST.  I hadn't been feeling to good, gal told me my bp was 134/96.  I wasn't too surprised, tho they were...I'm taking 750mg of Aldomet/day for it.  Anywho, NST looked good...babes woke up all pissy being squished with the belts and went to kickin' like mad.  Ok, so..back to the waiting room after 20 minutes of NST.  10 minutes later, called into the back office.  Weight is doing well, so that was good to hear.  Doc came in (using the term 'doc' lightly).  She was in a major hurry.  She started out saying my BP was fine for a chronic high BP patient...I said it's only fine if I'm not on meds.  This is not fine, it's been low until recently.  So she makes 'note' of that.  Tells me to take Sudafed for my sinuses...I tell her it doesn't help, she says ok, then we'll see you in 2 weeks and give you something if needed.  I told her don't bother, it will go away long before that.  She starts to walk out, I ask her about my urine.  She says 'Oh yeah!' (scary she's in charge of my care, thankfully only today)....tells me I have protein (from the BP) and sugar in my urine.  The sugar threw me for a loop.  She asks me to take the 1 hour glucose testing AGAIN.  I was like yippee, feel like I'm going to barf while sitting in a over-packed waiting room for another hour..LOL.  But, of course, I do it...its about the baby and I's health, all bitching aside.  Oh, and before doc tries to run out AGAIN, I ask her about the delivery.  We live 70+ miles away, kinda like to know something.  She says if something happens asap, then go to the local ER (no kiddin').  Otherwise, I will be induced at 38 weeks (give or take a day), which would be Feb. 12.  I asked about the c-section (just so I know I won't be doing the 42-hour labor again).  She says well of course not that long, but we'll see how things go before we do a c-section.  So, all I found out for definate is:  delivery at 38 weeks.  I guess that's a start.  Anywho, after looking like I was tripping on acid for an hour in the waiting room, I go get my blood drawn (talk to the gal back there in the lab..she's a trip..some Jamaican gal).  I get in the car after scheduling my next 2 weeks appointments (I mention the fact that 2 weeks will be ultrasound time again, gal says it wasn't written on today's order, but it will be happening anyway) Oh, and the 2 appointments a week starts the 1st week of January.  Time I got in the car:  2:22pm.  Total appointment time (approx):  5 hours..LOL. 

Next week, I'll take the girls and mom..get em outta the house and let them suffer with me.  Then, Alex and the girls will get to go (oh lucky you, honey) LOL. 

Kait had to come home early from school (threw up)..they called me in Orlando, I'm like uh...someone will get her, hold please.  Alex got her, mom came early to watch her.  Tomorrows her Christmas party at school..that should be fun for us all..LOL.

Mom seems like she kinda wants to be down in the dumps, but is holding off.  Hopefully this all works out soon.  Scott and Petey stopped over...they're giving her a puppy.  She said no at first, but I think she'll cave.  They're adorable..full-blood pomeranians, 9 weeks old.  Gave Mom and I our Christmas presents early, too..WOOHOO..LOL. 

Gal I know hinted she needed a few bucks today...we're busted (who isn't this time of year..LOL).  She then mentioned how she was trying to get ahold of someone else we know to ask her for more cash...I told her that'd be a waste of time.  Told her that person isn't in the 'loaning' business.  She got pissed.  I told her she had no right to get pissed, she owed that person for a gascard used for a trip a couple of years ago (now on that persons credit).  She denies that, as well, and even tho I don't talk to the other person anymore, I know that she's not lying about the gascard.  I used the gascard twice and paid mine.  She says she kept that person in cigs when she didn't have money...I told her that the other person lent everyone cash, let them use her credit cards, and babysat for them.  She says she always OVERpaid the other person for watching her kids.  Anywho, not my deal to defend the other person, but I do know how it all went down.  And I made it clear to the person that going to the other person was a huge mistake.  *shrug*  Whatever tho.  Some days it feels like nothings changed on that end...want to IM or email with something interesting...then I remember, things are very much different.  Sad, really...sad...years, gone.

:(

Talked to mom again today...things didn't go well at the bank.  Suddenly, the bank found many errors dating back to March/April!  She's pretty screwed.  I told her everything to do to make it right..but I know she's scared outta her mind, hell, I would be too.  Luckily, she did get the checks she has automatically deposited into that account coming to her via snailmail next month, so the bank won't eat her entire month's money.  She drives me up the damn wall, but she's the only mom I have.  I wish Scott would pitch in more then he is...I know it has to do with Petey's 'strained' relationship with her.  I dunno...wish there was something more I could do, but, like everyone else this time of year, money isn't overflowing.  These trips to Orlando all the dang time aren't helping.  The tolls alone are 6 bucks, plus gas, plus either meter or parking garage.  Gotta remember to pack my lunch tomorrow.  Have to see the OB, so that means I'll be there forever and a damn day. 

  Got my cellphone bill yesterday (no biggie, comes every month right), said due 12/27..they suspended it today (I can receive calls, can't make them..they say they want $26 bucks first).  I'm thinking this HAS to be a glitch on their end..I'm not late..LOL.  It's a minor annoyance, but has to be fixed...can't be hikin' my preggo-azz to Orlando without some kind of reassurance that if something happens, I can call someone to help me.

Baby didn't move much yesterday..kinda had me freaked out.  Thought maybe since I wasn't feeling so hot (damn sinus crud), maybe baby wasn't feeling so hot (sounds stupid, but hell if I know).  She started bouncing around this morning, tho, so that made me feel better.  Will get to double-check that tomorrow with the NST.  Still trying to figure out a name.  Alex gets his inspiration from Cinemax duct-tape porn and Winghouse waitresses, but I'm lettin' him save those names for the dog he doesn't have...LOL!

Trying to be giddy today, just doesn't want to work tho...stuff with mom really has me bummed.  We're tighter on money then we've ever been (thank God, will only be this month..really these last 2 weeks..), Kim and Donald are having all kinds of troubles (from Donald's teeth extractions, to his truck breaking down).  Always happens at the same time, and conviently at the holidays...blah blah blah.  We'll all squeak thru..hoping and praying with mom, that scares me..could easily turn into a legal problem. 

Guess that's enough for now.  Going to try the hot bath thing again in the other bathtub this time, later.  I want HOT WATER, dangit..LOL!  *Toodles*

Last addendum...grrrrrr

Stepped my foot into a luke-warm bathtub...damn it.  So dang cold outside, apparantly the pipes don't want to cooperate.  So did a quick bathing, got out, blah blah.

Talked to mom;  bank is attempting to screw her over with a smile on their faces.  I told her what to do/say.  Hopefully it works out that way, I really don't want to get involved more then I have already, I hate fighting the bank on my own accord, let alone someone elses. 

Damn it all...addendum to first post

I have sneezed 384.5 times (caught one before it got out).  My gut is aching from it...thought I felt so/so yesterday, but was just the change in climate.  Thinking now, the lovely change in climate has made my big butt sick.  I'm on constant antibiotics til the babes is born, thought that would help me from getting 'bout anything..or I guess I was hoping.  Running a hot bath now, drinking hot tea.  Trying to breathe.  Luckily Alex will be home soon, I know he's going to be freezing his arse off tonight.  Tubs done, I'm gone.  ~Toodles Again~

Nada

Nothing much going on.  Mom called in a tizzy about bank-problems, haven't been able to get a hold of her since then.  Had to go talk to Kait's teacher today after school.  We had discussed her short attention span before, but apparantly things are getting worse.  She's writing in her worksheet books again, completely disregarding the teacher's instructions (not defiantely, just as tho she never heard it the teacher speak).  Anywho, teacher's going to go talk to Guidance again and see what can be done on their end, and I'm going to talk to Stephanie (her counselor) and Dr. Kawliche (her psychiatrist).  She's been on the same med for well over a year, could be that it's losing it's effectiveness. 

Have another trip to Orlando Thursday.  This time it will be for an NST and to see the doc.   Maybe I'll find out some more about what to expect about delivery this time.

Friday is Kaitlynne's Christmas party at school.  I'll be going, hopefully Alex will..Scott & Petey have to work.  After school, we're loading up and heading to Georgia to pick up Alex's daughter.  That will be good for everyone..I know Alex misses her desperately, and it will give Kaitlynne someone to play with during the holiday break.

Guess that's all for now.  Thinking a hot bath's in order here shortly... *Toodles*

Nuttin'

Just checkin' in.  Kaitlynne had a doc appt. Tuesday;  had stopped one of her medications due to a nasty reaction, added one to help her sleep.  Poor kid was barely pulling down 2-3 hours a night, exhausted (and cranky).  Wednesday, went over to Kimmie's and played some yahtzee while the kids tryed to kill each other (in the most loving manner, of course).  Thursday, Kaitlynne and I packed up and headed to Orlando for the 1st NST.  Got there at 10am, got in at 11:30am, did my 20 minute test (baby looked very good, I was a bit dehydrated tho), confirmed my appt. for next Thursday, and came home.  They did tell me that when I hit 32 weeks, I will have to go every Monday and Thursday.  This just bites, even tho I know it's definantly for a good cause.  Just hard cuz it costs so much to get down there, just for the 20 minute test that you would THINK they could do here and just fax the results.  But, they won't.  I see the doc next Thursday, find out more about what to expect as far as delivery.  Would like to know what they're thoughts are as far as how labor will go (induction or csection), and when they think they'll want to do all this.  We go get Alex's daughter next Friday, he'll work for that following week, then he's all mine for 9 days :)  Just about done with Christmas, have to get for Kim & Donald and her 2 kids (got a couple small things already..), Scott & Petey, Nick & Patria, and Alex's dad.  Majority of our shopping is done tho *whew*.  Guess that's about it... *toodles*.

Sunday, Bloody Sunday

Ok, well, goin to write something in here.  I've had a killer sinus-headache all day, so thinking isn't so clear.  Well, went to the Christmas parade here in town last night with my friends.  Got annoyed at my friend's husband (partially cuz he's a man, partially cuz of my hormones), but we still had a good time.  Parade seemed to move slower this year, dunno why..maybe it was just me.  Kids had fun, tho, and that's all that matters.  While I was there, I ran into a gal I used to work with.  Her daughter just had twin babies (they were so cute..just over 5lbs each).  Anywho, her daughter has the same insurance I do, and she told the hospital in G'ville that she could not drive all the way to Orlando when they put her on high-risk, and Shands accepted her!  So, I'm hoping to beg and plead tomorrow and get myself going to Shands instead.  I'd rather drive to G'ville alone then Orlando. 

Went to Kim's mom's today for Katherine's party (also Lucille's friend's birthday).  Was good, had a cookout.  Donald's tooth ordeal was bothering him too bad, so he went home early, and I took Kim and the boys home with me later.  

Finally have the handyman from the realty company coming out in the morning.  We've been here over 3 months and they've fixed nothing that happened with the hurricanes (which he isn't tomorrow either) or anything that was wrong with the joint when we moved in.  Hopefully atleast get screens on the dang windows so we can open them.

Scott and Petey want us to take their lil pomeranian dogs, which I'm thinkin' we will.  Not positive yet, but the  deal was they wait til after our house inspection in January (mandatory 90-day with the realty company), then we'd talk.  Kim's sister wants to buy a puppy.  Scott said only 200 bucks, I was like dang, for a purebred pomeranian?  Even tho it doesn't have papers, that's still a great deal. 

Anywho, that's it.  I'm tired.  *Toodles*

On the road again...

Ok well I went to the new OB down in Orlando at Arnold Palmer.  We got there at 9:30am (appt was for noon..lol).  Glad we did too...ugh, took forever.  They measured, did urine, etc...Good news was that BP was doing pretty well with the med they put me on.  They did an U/S (I'm hoping to be able to figure out a way to post the pics..they are so good, straight on clear shots!), and said she's doing well, 2lbs 11oz.  I have to do the 24-hour urine test (yuck), they took more blood, and I have to start weekly NST's next week.  I do that for 4 weeks, then after that I have to start biweekly NST's...all the way to Orlando for it :(  But, it's for baby and me, so that's what's important.  They gave me a script for a BP machine so I could monitor it myself at home.  Discussed the possibility of csection/inducement early.  They also put me on an antibiotic for the rest of the pregnancy to help prevent anymore UTI's.  I've had 3, so far.  While I knew that an untreated UTI could cause a kidney infection, I didn't know that an untreated kidney infection caused Adult Respiratory Distress.  Entire appt:  7 hours exactly!!!  I couldn't believe it!  Alex had only taken a few hours off work, so he was late getting to work.  Neither of us had eaten, because no one told us it would be that dang long.  Worst part for me was that all my appt's will be on Thursday's.  I can't get them on Friday's ever.  Which means I'll be making all further 1 and 1/2 hour drives there, then back, by myself :(  That part nearly had me in tears..a high-risk preggo driving all the way there and back by herself...lovely.  Guess I'm whining..sorry :(  Anywho, that's it.  If ya read it all, ya know the routine <passin out the cookies>.

Today

Tomorrow's the Orlando appointment.  I'm nervous, but glad to be going to get good care.  Saturday is the Christmas parade...I can't wait for that.  Going to get some glow-sticks for Kaitlynne and the boys.  Should be a blast, as it always is.   Feet are swollen like crazy today, I'm sure the BP is going apey.  But she's moving around alot, so I'm sure she's doing just fine.  Hopefully get to see her again tomorrow, been 9 weeks since my last ultrasound.  Ok, well, boring entry, but I did it.  Oh, Alex said the sweetest things to me in IM today while he was at work.  So sweet that I saved them in my email.  Good boy, yes he is...*smile* 

Just killin' time

Well, it's 12:34 in the mornin.  I'm waitin' on Alex to get home, he's helping my mom move the last of her stuff to her new place..isn't he a sweetie..LOL. 

Kait did so well at the dentist...probably better then I did when I went..LOL.  We had to wait for over 3 hours for the damn dentist to get there, then when he did, he asked if I wanted to reschedule for the work to be done..I was like, are you nuts?  I've been waiting for 3 hours already, lets do this!  They filled 10 tiny cavities in her teeth.  They told me she need to brush more (she does twice a day now), but that us having well-water (for the first 5 years of her life anyway) was what caused the most damage.  No fluoride in the water, and chemicals breaking down the enamel.  Blah.  She's good tho, said she has very pretty teeth otherwise.  Hope she has a killer smile.  I have bad teeth...between genetics and lack of care when I was a child.

Well, Alex and mom just got here and dropped off her few things we're storing for her.  She begged for pet rats, then I give them to her for Mother's Day and now she's given them to us.  Tells me to go release them in the wild for her...grrrrrrr...woman drives me nuts.  But THANK YOU GOD she is DONE moving!  That's it for now...after 1am.  Toodles.

Just checkin' in

Had a great turkey day....I cooked mega-meal early so Alex could eat before going to work (mom came over for that one, too).  Then, Kaitlynne and I went to my friend's mom's house with them.  Had a good time, everyone was in a good mood.  Kim and I got our 'shop til you drop or drop someone else' lists done.  We (her, her hubby, Alex, and I) all met at the mall at 4:45am to go to KB Toys.  It was RIDICULOUS.  Stood in line for an hour and a half for 2 darned cat things.  Oh well, we did hit a few more stores, and other then the stocking stuffers, we're done!  Woohoo!  Going to get Alex's gift next week...heh...(I know you're reading this..and I'm not tellin'...brat).   Alex got me a Gameboy Advance and a game (don't know if he necessarily got it by choice..I wish I hadn't picked it out, especially after he told me he had had something else in mind, but was happy if I was happy, made me feel like crapola...I'm just not used to someone I'm with actually putting thought into getting me a gift..I always get myself something..). 

Tomorrow is Kaitlynne's first dental visit..she's excited (she has a cavity and can't wait for it to feel better)..I'm nervous for her..she's going to freak..LOL.  Then Thursday is our first visit at Arnold Palmer.  That's got me really nervous, too.  Or I guess I should say I'm anxious....want to know something..ANYTHING..about what's going to happen here.  Other doc told me nothing, really.   I don't think anything is wrong with baby...I've had all the tests done, and altho this doc didn't tell me anything about them, I'm hoping that means nothing bad.  She moves alot.  Has the hiccups as I type.  Oh well, hope Alex goes with me.  Really don't want to drive all the way there (tho I know mom would go with me..she wants to, actually) without knowing where I'm going. 

Oh, we got our Christmas tree up.  Even tho Alex and I nearly killed each over the tree, it turned out really nice.  Neither of us had ANY decorations going into it, so it was starting from scratch.  We (pretty much me, he didn't seem to care one way or another) decided on blue/silver/white theme.  Looks really cool.  Hung some lights outside and put up big candy canes in the yard.  We're damn-near festive now!  LOL!  That's about it, I guess.  *Toodles*

Next stop: Labor & Delivery

Well, the last week I've been having mega Braxton-Hicks contractions.  The night before last they had gotten painful, alot of pressure when I went to the bathroom, then some spotting.  BP was going up.  I laid down, thought if I just relaxed, it'd be ok.  I did fall asleep (hard to sleep these days, already).  The next day, I felt ok for a little while...then it all happened again.  So, I called mom, she came over to stay with Kaitlynne, and I went to MRMC.  They took me right up to L&D, hooked me all up, and took urine.  The one funny thing was little girl didn't take kindly to having a microphone (heartbeat monitor) on her, kept kicking it off...was cute.  Anywho, they finally realized it was a bladder infection.  Gave me an antibiotic for that, and FINALLY put me on a BP med.  I asked why my doc here couldn't have done that...no answer.  They DID call him, too...he told them I was no longer his patient and would answer no questions...jerk.  So they had to call the midwife on duty in...she encouraged me to change my HMO so that I could go to Shands instead of Arnold Palmer.  Only problem is, lapse in care...of atleast 6 weeks...I can't go 6 weeks without care.  So, I'll stick with Arnold Palmer for now...I go next Thursday (hopefully Alex gets to come...don't want to go in blind down there)...going to see what they say.  I'm really thinking they will schedule a date..either for induction or csection.  Can't very well go into labor here and drive for hours to get there...so we'll see then.  Everything is still hurting today..I can't get the meds til tomorrow.  They want me on total bedrest, too, but geez...isn't that impossible at the holidays?  Doing the best I can.  All that matters is baby is good...and I'm not in any direct danger at this present time.  Now if Alex and I can just decide on a name for her...LOL.

 

Belly Pic

Tada!  Taken today, approximately 26 weeks.

Clarifications & Updates

Took this down, said I wasn't going to write in it again....after much thinking on it, I decided it's my journal...I'll write what I want in it, no matter who it might bother.  However, I won't use it as a way to inflict hurtful feelings onto someone.  That's not to say I won't say something that won't hurt someone else...that could very well happen.  It just won't be an intentional thing any longer.

Here's the latest.  I'm showing signs of preeclampsia again, so my care has now been transferred to Arnold Palmer Hospital in Orlando (first appointment Dec. 2nd).  I'm glad in one sense-atleast I know I'll be getting top-notch care, as in when I was pregnant with Kaitlynne.  Sucks in another sense-Orlando is not a hop, skip, and a jump away.  My doctor here mentioned things like delivering baby early (34-36 weeks), possibly by C-Section.  The delivering early scares me...I don't want a NICU baby, if at all possible....the c-section part, well...after 42 hours of labor with Kaitlynne, c-section doesn't sound all bad.  Not my first choice, understand...but nice to know the option is there.  My feet and legs swell until the skin is shiny, my hands swell, even my face, at times.  Sometimes it gets so bad, my joints ache.  Hard to get comfy now...sciatca acting up, mostly at night.  I wake up limping around for awhile.  Sounds like I'm whining alot...guess I might be, I dunno.  But dang, when something hurts...it hurts..LOL.

My friend Kim and her husband have been trying to have another baby (#3 for them).  Kinda funny after ALL the times she SWORE there would be no more after her 2 boys she has now.  She was worried I'd be upset that she was trying again..like 'stealing my glory' or something.  Ridiculous...babies are wonderful, I don't blame her for wanting another one.  They're hoping for a girl, of course happy with a healthy baby no matter.  She's had one 'official' cycle of ovulation sense getting off of the pill.  She knows that it can take up to 90 days (or more in some) for the pill's effect to wear off, her husband has doubts that maybe there's something wrong with him because she didn't get pregnant the very first day they did the deed after no pills.  Dingdong..can't help but chuckle at that.  I have no doubt (and neither does she) that it will happen.  Her family is definately fertile.

Turkey-day is coming up...can't wait.  I love to cook a big meal, and definately eat it..LOL.  Starting to cook on Wednesday so Alex can eat with us (Mom's coming over) before he has to go to work on Thursday.  Then heading over to Kim's mom's house.  Anna will be there (that's a whole other story)...should be...'interesting'.  My brother will be leaving the Friday following (while Alex and I are out Christmas shopping..LOL) to come back down to live.  Excited about that.  They finally got definate work here, and their house is done (and beautiful).  Their doggies had puppies, too...3 of them.  I can't wait to see the lil things.

Kaitlynne's doing well.  Her dad actually wrote her a card (nice one, too).  Says he's still 'close by' and will 'see her soon'.  For her sake, I hope he does.  It's been one year since I left him...and we've seen him once.  Anywho, Kaitlynne will hopefully be able to get a mentor (older student) at school to give her a little added help with her math.  It's her favorite subject, but it's the one she's worst at...go figure..LOL.

Alex and I are doing well.  We've definately had more then our share of bumps in the road, but I hope...really truly hope...those days are done.  I like where we are right now...want it to stay that way.

That's enough for now.  Maybe more later.  Figure it's time for another bellypic update, too.  *Peace*

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Just updatin' for the weekend.  Had the baby shower yesterday...had a really good time.  Was a little surprised that 1 person in particular didn't show up..hoping she's ok...not surprised by a couple others.  Kim had gotten hot wings, veggie tray, cheese & meat tray, chips, and these cute little cupcakes with booties (of a certain color, of course) on them.  Baby got the carseat I wanted (attaches to the stroller I bought a couple of months ago), an adorable photo album, the crib light/projector I wanted, really cute outfits, one of the diaper bags I wanted (still need the big one, Daddy..LOL), and so much more stuff...kiddo made out like a bandit, thanks to my friends and family that came.  Oh, and Kim got me the handheld Yahtzee game (I'm always going to her bathroom to play hers...LMAO..sounds like TMI, I know). 

I'm going to Walmart this week sometime to put the Christmas layaway on...got a couple things in mind for the girls and Alex (I know, I don't want anything, blah blah). 

Oh yeah, we went trick-or-treating last night with Kim and her gang, as well as her sister and her child, too.  We had a really good time, Kaitlynne went as a witch ( I took pics, but my cam ate them..have to have someone send it to me).  Got a ton of candy (oh yippee).  Guess that's about it.  Making homemade chilli for Alex tonight...house is startin' to smell yummy.  Anywho, outta here.

Today

Just got back from the carnival about an hour ago.  Kait has been a holy terror all day, sure to be like this all dang weekend with trick-or-treating tomorrow night.  Anywho, pretty much had a good time at the carnival.  It was 'supposed' to get down to 60 tonight, so we wore clothes that were a little heavier, only to have the humidity be in the 90's...dying of heat exhaustion.  Alex and Kait rode quite a few rides, then we ate at the cookout.  His brother and his family showed up, we walked around for a little while with them, but they showed up after we had been there 3 hours...I was tired and hot, Kait needed to go to bed before she drove me totally insane, etc...  All in all, a good time for the small fee of 20 bucks.  Tomorrow's the shower, very excited..should be much fun.  Then trick or treating.  I'll post a pic of Kait in her costume tomorrow night or Sunday.  Looks as tho I'm rambling again, so g'night.

Why must there be a subject

First...WTG RED SOX!  Fantastic sweep!  Second..eh, not much to say today.  Going to the carnival tomorrow night with Alex (yes, you're going) and Kaitlynne.  Should be fun, and luckily it's been cooling off at night.  I actually remembered to buy tickets ahead of time half price..never remember to do that.  Saturday is my baby's shower...very excited about that.  Then taking my little witch out trick or treating.  We had a dog for a whole 15 minutes a couple of days ago.  As soon as it walked in, I could tell it had been beaten.  Very pretty dog, friendly (with adults, anyway, don't know about kids).  Alex walked outside for a minute and the dog freaked, so I knew it would tear the house up if left alone...and we rent.  Then, the cats were introduced and quickly locked back up when the dog made an attempt to eat my Smokey.  Needless to say, the dog went back...which turned out to be a good thing, since the owner came back for it the next day (the owner was thought to have left it behind).  I could tell Alex liked having it...and when we get our own place, a dog will be the first thing we get.  Something younger that can grow up with the kids and cats...perhaps a lab.  Anywho, I'm rambling....guess that's about it.  Prayers out to the family of those 2 poor little girls who were killed after being hit by a car yesterday.  That was so horrible.  I'm a cellphone user, occasionally in the car, too....WAS...guarantee I won't now...I couldn't live with myself knowing I had done something that heinous just because I had to chitchat with someone on the phone while driving....

Feeling isn't a bad thing

For every action, there is a reaction.  Having feelings or emotions on any given subject isn't a bad thing.  Showing that you have these emotions isn't a bad thing either, tho it does leave you open and vulnerable to those with a negative opinion.  It's been said to be a sign of weakness, tho I don't see how.  It shows you are human..you are alive.  I'd much rather take my chances being open to attack then to have others view me as frigid, cold, no emotion or feeling towards anything.  I tend to close up about many things, but bullying people for their beliefs or for the way they do things is wrong...and there's no reason why I should be quiet and not tell someone that.  Stand up for the underdog.  Sometimes I am the underdog, and I'll stand up for myself.  People online tend to get far to personal when they're on the 'attack'.  We don't know each other from Adam, so how can we say we 'know' anything about someone else on here?  Especially if it's a mere opinion of how someone is, with no sound backing to base it on.  It's rather sad that some people are so miserable with themselves or their lives that they must belittle and torment others to attempt to make themselves feel better.  I'll be the first to admit that there has been occasion where topics on here have gone to far and I've gotten my feelings hurt, or I've seen someone else get there's hurt.  They may just be words on a screen, but there is some hateful person behind the other screen typing these words.  Anywho, I guess the point of the vent today is:  don't be afraid to show some emotion...it's better to have shown then to never have felt it (or anything else, for that matter) at all.

Hell froze over...

Mom called me day before yesterday, said she had a check there for me.  I was like from what, she said child support disbursement.  I was like you gotta be kidding me.  Granted, it was only  66 bucks and he owes like 800 (only because I didn't go retro on his butt), but still...I NEVER thought I'd see ANY money from him, voluntarily (meaning I didn't have to go back to court).  I'm sure I'll have to anyway, and I'm sure that's why he paid that little amount, to show effort.  So I'll wait and see what happens.  Still surprising.  Then, of course, mom had to throw her 2 cents in telling me to call and threaten him with a call to the IRS or to the police regarding certain things...I told her that was ridiculous, and there was no reason NOT to use the courts..she said I was being a wuss about it and letting him get away with whatever, which is SO untrue because I already took him to court to get it ordered, and I called child support enforcement 2 weeks ago to find otu what I do if he's not paying.  Anyway, got ticked that she jumped on me w/out knowing all of it, she got ticked that I got ticked, hung up on me..LOL.  Anyway, we're over it now...he's not worth the effort of getting ticked over.

Went w/ mom to get the car seat today...I still have to look surprised at the shower on Saturday, tho...she just couldn't find the right one, even tho it was on the registry, so I went with her..LOL. 

Anywho, bout it...baby's kicking up a storm all day today...probably go to sleep once daddy gets home so he won't be able to feel it..LOL.

Enough is enough

Took care of something that was really grating on me.  I was so worried about upsetting someone or rocking a boat, so I was letting myself get walked-on.  Not anymore...I survived an abusive marriage of 9 years, surely not going to take crap from someone who doesn't even know me.  Feeling much better, and thanks to my buddy for listening to me whine about it. 

On a much more cheerful and interesting note, baby has been kicking like crazy the last few days; what a wonderful feeling, even if it is my bladder!  My babyshower is next Saturday..very excited to see some old friends I haven't been able to see in awhile.

Feeling pretty good, get tired quick, but I'm still out doing to keep myself busy.  Alex and I went out to dinner and mini-golfing w/ his brother and his girlfriend..and I FINALLY won one against Alex..and yes, I'm STILL rubbing it in..LOL.  They opened a new Walmart 15 minutes away, and it's soooo nice (I know, easily amused..LOL).  Going to go back today with my GOOD shoes on, because this place is HUGE!  Anywho, nothing else going on, so I'm outta here. :)

BAAAHAHAHAHAHA

Hmmm...no skankee yankees at the world series this year.  "Winners never cheat & cheaters never win".  LOL!  Wonderful that the curse on the Red Sox has been lifted, and dang, it just couldn't be happier news for those that truly detest the pretty-boys of baseball.

It's funny how they all came out smelling like roses at the end of it all...and I came out the paranoid bitch...

Skankee Yankees

Police in riot gear on the field during a game of "America's past-time"...leave it to the yankee fans on this one.  I'll give them the whole John Rocker thing w/ the batteries..he was an idiot who shouldn't have spoken-period.  But c'mon now..ARod flat-out picked up his yellow-bellied hand and smacked that ball right outta the mit of Arroyo (thank you, Alex).  Skankee fans are just ticked cuz their team got caught doing what they do best...cheating.

Just talking..

Had 'the appointment' today..the ultrasound.  Daddy stayed in long enough to see the head, then left (is determined not to find out..and I'm determined not to be the one that slips..LOL).  So yes, needless to say, I found out what it was.  Not putting it here, cuz he reads it..LOL.  Baby is healthy and doing well, due date change to Feb. 26, 2005, my BP is doing its normal climb upwards and onwards...sucks.  Have to go take the 1 hour glucose test tomorrow or Friday..that crud they make you drink is DISGUSTING *gag*.

Also, I tried calling Kait's dad twice regarding the call I got about his lost checkbook.  His roommate finally tells me to leave a message cuz 'he doesn't think Larry wants to take my calls since he keeps leaving when I do call'...so I said 'tell the loser to take his drunk azz and retrace his steps to every bar in town and find his checkbook his dayum self then'.  Sucks..if that had been a call to tell him something about Kaitlynne, wouldn't matter to him..he won't even talk to her anymore.  She said something about him yesterday and referred to him as "Larry" not "Daddy"....*shrug* not like I'm discouraging this..I tried forever for him to be involved.  It's his damn loss.

<There is no subject>

I'm listening to my daughter's breathing as she's sleeping.  It's hard to imagine it's been over 7 yrs since I had her..she's growing up too quickly.  And now there's another baby coming...everyone's thrilled, including myself.  However, in the back of my mind I wonder how I'm going to make sure both kids know I love them equally.  It's been Kaitlynne and I for so long...I don't want the new baby to feel I don't love him/her the same, or for Kaitlynne to feel I don't love her as much.  I'm sure it will all work out..I always wanted more kids, I guess it's just still hard to believe it's actually happening.

Tomorrow is the ultrasound.  Only 'supposed' to bring 2 people with me, however, along with daddy and I, there will be Kaitlynne, my mom, and my friend.  Guess they'll have to take turns coming in....LOL.  Daddy doesn't want to find out the sex with us, so I know he (and Kaitlynne *repeater*) will be going out for that one, assuming baby cooperates.

Baby kicks up a storm now...every once in awhile it can be felt on the outside, but never seems to let daddy feel it (did once, not since then..just reaffirms my belief that it's a lil girl..LOL).  Still battling this sinus infection...this is week 6.  My doc wants me to go to see an Ear, Nose, & Throat specialist, but I have to wait for my primary doc to see me to refer me to this person.  I don't see her until December.  So...it's pretty much a hurry up and wait (and suffer) deal.  My blood pressure goes wacky..usually spikes at night (like right now)...then ok during the day.  Already on partial bedrest from the bleeding, which happens once in awhile still, but not as much as before.  I had the high BP with Kaitlynne, but otherwise, an 'uneventful' pregnancy....wierd how they are all different...

The latest cravings:  OJ (by the gallons), eggs, bologna/cheese sandwiches, beefsteak tomatoes, salads, subs.  I've gotten lucky with this pregnancy, too, as far as not craving sweets.  My booty is big enough w/out that...LOL.  I'm 22 weeks today, total weight gain is 16lbs.

"Jump thru the hoop"

Went to the doc today for this f'n sinus infection that's now been keeping me company for 5 weeks..and for the bp that jacks up when it dayum well feels like it....thanks to my wonderful insurance company, I get to sit..and suffer w/ the sinus for atleast 2 more months.  BP..well..that's an ongoing problem..but who gives a shit, right...this must be my punishment for screwing everything little damn thing up..I don't know how people around me survive as well as they do, knowing such an f'n idiot like myself.  Tired of being the punching bag...y'all having a bad day?  Did ya screw something up, perhaps, and don't feel like owning up to it yourself?  Well yanno what..TAKE YOUR SHIT ELSEWHERE..I don't give a flying flip anymore.  Been here, done it..got the f'n t-shirt and BURNED IT along w/ the 'me' that stood around and put up w/ this shit.

So tired...

Get up every day..take the kid to school..come back..sleep or sit and wait..for what, I don't know.  Eat lunch, go get kid from school, come back..sit and wait..for what, I don't know.  Sit on the computer, looking to keep company..for what, I don't know..my company is not needed nor wanted.  Been here before..so tired..

Just another day..

Adding another day to the chapter..(see, I do write in this thing occasionally, Alex).  Oct. 2nd came and went...2 yrs w/out Kevin.  I'm not with his Dad anymore, but the pain of it all is the same as it was the day it all happened.  I called to check on Matt, but he wasn't home and didn't get a chance to call me back...and yanno, that doesn't bother me at all.  Makes me feel good to know he's out there, living his life...hopefully the scars of what he's seen and been thru won't screw up his entire life.  Belly's getting bigger, usually feel ok, sometimes my back starts hurting.  Wierd cravings are going to kill me..not what I want, but when I want it...all Alex's fault for working late...LOL.  Guess that's about it...love you, Kev...your sister is doing great, keep up the excellent work of watching over her.

~Me~

Blah

Had a doc appt. yesterday.  Not sure why I had bled, but going to keep an 'eye' on it.  Have my ultrasound set for 10/12.  Can't wait, not just cuz I want to find out the sex of the baby, but I want to have a picture or something to show people.  My babyshower has been set for 10/31 (halloween..lol..during the day tho), my friend's Tina and Kim are throwing it for me.  Other then giving the list of who I want there, and registering, that's all I know about it---should be a blast tho!

That's it for now.  Oh, Kait had her physical today.  67 lbs and 4 and a half feet tall..goodness..kids an amazon..lol.

Just a' typin..

Enjoy the mugshot..LOL..I'm apparantly bored.  Anywho, quick update.  Had a scare last week w/ the pregnancy..had to go to the hospital at midnight cuz I started bleeding.  Luckily, after 4 hours, we saw the baby on ultrasound and s/he's fine.  They aren't sure what caused it, most likely stress.  I go next Tuesday to the doc for followup, so we'll see.  Hoping to be able to find out soon what I'm having.  S/O doesn't want to know..should be interesting to see if my family and friends can keep it secret (me too, for that matter) lol.  Not feeling nearly as queasy, so I really have to watch what I eat (cuz I want to eat everything..LOL).  Not really, most cravings have been salads and eggs..tons of eggs...lol.  We just got done w/ dealing w/ Hurricane Frances.  Got really bad here...bout as bad as I've seen Ocala get.  We lost a lot of shingles on our roof, causing the insulation in the attic to get wet and heavy-caved in the ceiling in the closet of my daughter's room.  Also, trees galore down!  We didn't have power or water for 4 days.  Got it back around 530pm last night...talk about a huge relief!  We all came in to the air conditioned house and fell asleep (it had been so damn hot in here before, couldn't sleep).  Luckily, we rent this house so we don't have to pay to fix it.  However, I still can't get ahold of the dadgum rental company..LOL.  Anywho, guess that's enough ramblin' for now.  {Peace}

Back in the saddle...

Wow, it's been almost a year since I wrote in this thing...I actually forgot I had it..LOL.  Things have changed...left my idiot husband back in November of 2003, been with a couple people since then, now with a good guy since May of this year.  We're expecting a child in Feb. 2005.  Really tired of feeling like total crap, but happy to be having another child.  Anywho, can't think of a whole lot else to say right now..maybe later...