Feeling isn't a bad thing

For every action, there is a reaction.  Having feelings or emotions on any given subject isn't a bad thing.  Showing that you have these emotions isn't a bad thing either, tho it does leave you open and vulnerable to those with a negative opinion.  It's been said to be a sign of weakness, tho I don't see how.  It shows you are human..you are alive.  I'd much rather take my chances being open to attack then to have others view me as frigid, cold, no emotion or feeling towards anything.  I tend to close up about many things, but bullying people for their beliefs or for the way they do things is wrong...and there's no reason why I should be quiet and not tell someone that.  Stand up for the underdog.  Sometimes I am the underdog, and I'll stand up for myself.  People online tend to get far to personal when they're on the 'attack'.  We don't know each other from Adam, so how can we say we 'know' anything about someone else on here?  Especially if it's a mere opinion of how someone is, with no sound backing to base it on.  It's rather sad that some people are so miserable with themselves or their lives that they must belittle and torment others to attempt to make themselves feel better.  I'll be the first to admit that there has been occasion where topics on here have gone to far and I've gotten my feelings hurt, or I've seen someone else get there's hurt.  They may just be words on a screen, but there is some hateful person behind the other screen typing these words.  Anywho, I guess the point of the vent today is:  don't be afraid to show some emotion...it's better to have shown then to never have felt it (or anything else, for that matter) at all.

Hell froze over...

Mom called me day before yesterday, said she had a check there for me.  I was like from what, she said child support disbursement.  I was like you gotta be kidding me.  Granted, it was only  66 bucks and he owes like 800 (only because I didn't go retro on his butt), but still...I NEVER thought I'd see ANY money from him, voluntarily (meaning I didn't have to go back to court).  I'm sure I'll have to anyway, and I'm sure that's why he paid that little amount, to show effort.  So I'll wait and see what happens.  Still surprising.  Then, of course, mom had to throw her 2 cents in telling me to call and threaten him with a call to the IRS or to the police regarding certain things...I told her that was ridiculous, and there was no reason NOT to use the courts..she said I was being a wuss about it and letting him get away with whatever, which is SO untrue because I already took him to court to get it ordered, and I called child support enforcement 2 weeks ago to find otu what I do if he's not paying.  Anyway, got ticked that she jumped on me w/out knowing all of it, she got ticked that I got ticked, hung up on me..LOL.  Anyway, we're over it now...he's not worth the effort of getting ticked over.

Went w/ mom to get the car seat today...I still have to look surprised at the shower on Saturday, tho...she just couldn't find the right one, even tho it was on the registry, so I went with her..LOL. 

Anywho, bout it...baby's kicking up a storm all day today...probably go to sleep once daddy gets home so he won't be able to feel it..LOL.

Enough is enough

Took care of something that was really grating on me.  I was so worried about upsetting someone or rocking a boat, so I was letting myself get walked-on.  Not anymore...I survived an abusive marriage of 9 years, surely not going to take crap from someone who doesn't even know me.  Feeling much better, and thanks to my buddy for listening to me whine about it. 

On a much more cheerful and interesting note, baby has been kicking like crazy the last few days; what a wonderful feeling, even if it is my bladder!  My babyshower is next Saturday..very excited to see some old friends I haven't been able to see in awhile.

Feeling pretty good, get tired quick, but I'm still out doing to keep myself busy.  Alex and I went out to dinner and mini-golfing w/ his brother and his girlfriend..and I FINALLY won one against Alex..and yes, I'm STILL rubbing it in..LOL.  They opened a new Walmart 15 minutes away, and it's soooo nice (I know, easily amused..LOL).  Going to go back today with my GOOD shoes on, because this place is HUGE!  Anywho, nothing else going on, so I'm outta here. :)

BAAAHAHAHAHAHA

Hmmm...no skankee yankees at the world series this year.  "Winners never cheat & cheaters never win".  LOL!  Wonderful that the curse on the Red Sox has been lifted, and dang, it just couldn't be happier news for those that truly detest the pretty-boys of baseball.

It's funny how they all came out smelling like roses at the end of it all...and I came out the paranoid bitch...

Skankee Yankees

Police in riot gear on the field during a game of "America's past-time"...leave it to the yankee fans on this one.  I'll give them the whole John Rocker thing w/ the batteries..he was an idiot who shouldn't have spoken-period.  But c'mon now..ARod flat-out picked up his yellow-bellied hand and smacked that ball right outta the mit of Arroyo (thank you, Alex).  Skankee fans are just ticked cuz their team got caught doing what they do best...cheating.

Just talking..

Had 'the appointment' today..the ultrasound.  Daddy stayed in long enough to see the head, then left (is determined not to find out..and I'm determined not to be the one that slips..LOL).  So yes, needless to say, I found out what it was.  Not putting it here, cuz he reads it..LOL.  Baby is healthy and doing well, due date change to Feb. 26, 2005, my BP is doing its normal climb upwards and onwards...sucks.  Have to go take the 1 hour glucose test tomorrow or Friday..that crud they make you drink is DISGUSTING *gag*.

Also, I tried calling Kait's dad twice regarding the call I got about his lost checkbook.  His roommate finally tells me to leave a message cuz 'he doesn't think Larry wants to take my calls since he keeps leaving when I do call'...so I said 'tell the loser to take his drunk azz and retrace his steps to every bar in town and find his checkbook his dayum self then'.  Sucks..if that had been a call to tell him something about Kaitlynne, wouldn't matter to him..he won't even talk to her anymore.  She said something about him yesterday and referred to him as "Larry" not "Daddy"....*shrug* not like I'm discouraging this..I tried forever for him to be involved.  It's his damn loss.